This is my office:
Or part of it. I’m settling into the different aspect of my
work, and today my focus was yoga.
I’m a Kundalini yoga teacher. I started my
teacher training in my first week of college and I’ve been teaching on and off ever
since. When I studied abroad in Scotland and France, I taught my
classmates. This continued in France until I picked a set with too much jumping
and the director had to come in to tell us we had broken the one rule in this
old building, no dancing and no jumping! No more yoga after that.
While I’ve been teaching for a few weeks now, today was a
particularly special day. Outside of my usual Tuesday-Thursday teaching
routine, I made the trek into town on a Monday to teach the first class of the
morning. Pati and Hector, the owners of the yoga studio were encouraging me,
“Are you ready for today? It’s going to be a really big class!” I was excited.
Once a month, yogis from neighboring cities, traveling an hour or more, to
practice at Karuna Yoga, and today, I was the highlighted teacher.
Kundalini
yoga is a rigorous yoga that stretches you to your physical limits so that you
can move beyond them. Practice to become limitless. With a new group, I often catch
myself wondering about the experience of my students - will be too hard, will they be irritated that
it’s not the traditional flow yoga they were expecting, or will they be weirded
out by the strange chanting and the white fabric on my head? I prepared the room with excitement and anxiety.
Curiosities and doubts traveled easily through my mind as I
sat down on my yoga mat. Everything was in place. There was my harp. There was
my flute and my new ocarina.
Mexico is known for
creating the most exquisite clay flutes shaped like animals called ocarinas. I
bought two on my trip to Atlisco and I was ready to play it for the first time
in public today!
It was 8:30, the start time for my class, and the room was
empty except for me. By 8:35, a few students began to trickle in.
“Don’t panic,” I told myself. This would be like my fourth birthday. I turned four in Nicaragua and planned a big party for my preschool
friends. The house was ready, the piñata in place and the cake in the back. I
sat on the front stoop waiting for my first guests to arrive. I waited there
for an hour. No one arrived.
Exactly one hour past the party’s start time, my first guest
appeared. A few minutes later, my second. Soon the house was full of little
friends, all acting as if arriving an hour late to a children’s party was the
most reasonable thing in the world. This class would be like that, I concluded. Only not an hour
late, more like 15 minutes.
No problem! I had planned ahead for that. I always
design an hour and fifteen minute class here even though the classes are an hour
and a half, because I’m in another culture and it’s reasonable to assume we
will start a little late.
By 8:45 the same seven students sat looking at me. No one
moved and I began to wonder if maybe there had been some confusion – perhaps this
wasn’t the special day and I wasn’t the highlighted teacher. Seven seems like a
good number for a yoga class, but when you’re expecting 25, it’s a let down.
I had to start. There was no point in spending my brain
waves revisiting unmet expectations; better to meet the students in front of me
and give them the best that I had. I explained a bit about Kundalini yoga, we
tuned in with our beginning prayer “Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo”. We were off!
At 9:05, in the midst of a neck stretching exercise, the
door from the street burst open. Students came flowing in, hugging the people
present that they knew, gathering their blankets and bolsters, waving hello to
Pati, the owner. 35 minutes into my class, I had 28 faces beaming back at me.
It was just like my birthday party! My little friends had not forgotten my birthday party and now I had a studio filled with loving, late energy.
We made up for the lost 35 minutes in the 55 we had left!
The students from Cordoba and Fortin had come just in time for the fun stuff.
Three minutes of chanting, five minutes of crazy arm shaking, and 7 minutes of
holding one posture without moving a muscle. I had picked a wacky set for the
class and the students met me with stamina, courage and enthusiasm! To me, yoga
is the place to safely meet adversity and laugh at it, stay with it and
celebrate what it can teach.
The class ended with 20 minutes of relaxation and meditation
to my celtic harp, flute and ocarina. Adding music to the class cleansed the
space. The students let the music carry them – in a journey, in their state of
rest, in their heart. They opened their eyes with a bit of a glow.
My class was truly a community event. From the studio, we
rejoined each other at the weekly organic market and restaurant for brunch. We
talked of yoga, vegetarianism, native trees that are going extinct, and how to
teach kids about mindfulness. One of the things I so admire about the people
here is their access to play. The amount of laughter here is astonishing and so
joyful! Surrounded by yogis, I didn’t get all the jokes, but I still had a good
time! The yoga class was complete and it was a special day!
Great post! You expressed both the inner tension of the attachment to expectations and the discipline to shift fully into the present. The words of a wise teacher!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful space for yoga! I'm glad you were able to go with the flow and it ended up being a wonderful experience for everyone.
ReplyDeleteGreat! One day I will learn yoga from you
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